eleven is the number of reorganization ...

Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but night shineth as the day:
the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.
- Psalms 139:12
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11 months since I began this journal - 11 - a significant number for various reasons.

How about "Chapter 11, Title 11, United States Code" ... ?

Two buildings once stood in the city of New York - twins, viewed from a distance resembling two numeral ones standing side-by-side.

During these 11 months I have found nothing incriminating about Joe Simone. Found Not Guilty on all charges, his wife in tears beside him, Joe told the press:
"I was always a good cop and did my job well."

I believed he was, and I still do, and Joe is still denied his pension.

FBI agent Lyndley DeVecchio is still receiving his pension.

An article about Joe also mentions his former boss, among others:
- http://www.americanmafia.com/Feature_Articles_297.html

The world is still not right.
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Learned so much through the last 11 months
- far beyond what happened September 11, 2001
... a century and more of history I had not understood as well previously.

Still an American, though what I have learned has caused me to be physically ill more times than I have kept count of ...
... no plans to go anywhere else yet, not a lot of hope things will improve soon.

The 19 so-called hijackers, terrorists (but whose ?), are still not identified by U.S. authorities - not to my knowledge, not to my satisfaction - some of them still alive.

Do I fear another terrorist attack ?

No - at least not in the sense you might think of "terrorist attack" ...
... not the kind of attack one reads about in newspapers.

No, I do not even fear the kind we do not read about in papers ...
... or see on television.

The possibilities are real ...
I know I may walk out one day and not return.

"Local man victim of drive-by shooting" the small headline will read.

Do I know I am being watched ? - no, I do not.

Do I think I am ? - sure I do: I see the signs, was trained in the drill.

I am not high priority - whether I disappear will matter to few ...

... for very different reasons on that day.

You may say I live in a fantasy world - and I will agree with you.

All Americans in the year 2007 are living in a fantasy world
- each one a little different maybe - most of us not behind the curtain.
Am I a skeptic ? - yes, about most things I would say, about most everything.

My reading has provided convincing arguments to counter much of what I was taught in school, most of which was based on convincing arguments
- about history, wars, nations and peoples, resources, motives ...

So I have my choice to believe "experts" on either side, or from both sides.

Truth is, as I see "truth" currently, both experts, and those who are not, can make a good case based on their own experience, and on what they have been taught, from available "knowledge"
... and not be wrong - not totally wrong.

I think that altered truths and rewritten histories are not new devices, but neither was ever so refined as art as in the Twentieth Century.

I think too that there is a price to be paid for defying natural laws.
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